Some thoughts in the shower this morning

Good morning! I sometimes think that my best thoughts are when I'm in the shower. My friend Dave would say that this is another indication of how water plays in my life. Anyway, I was reflecting on this community here at Zaadz. I am truly amazed at the openness and the warm hearts that are here. I blogged about recommendations for places to stay in San Jose a couple days ago. I sheepishly deleted the blog because it didn't fit with my purpose in blogging. Regardless, I received emails from people who read the team blog (thanks to Siona for posting it there) and offered their places for me to stay. I truly thank them from the bottom of my heart. I am touched and as an added bonus, I have made some new friends!

I remember when I first signed on board, almost a year in April. I was going through a difficult time in my life and was searching for some solace. I found that in this community. Over time, there were friendships developed that helped me on my healing path. I was enthusiastic to sign in each day to communicate with my friends and check out new blogs and new peeps. Zaadz has developed over the past year in many wonderful ways but my enthusiasm waned, especially in the past couple months. I think it might have to do with the season; I was retreating into myself. I had even contemplated leaving this community but thought I'd just wade it out. I'm glad I did. I realised this morning that I really love this community. I don't mean the giddy love that I had when I first signed on but just love without expectations or conditions. I guess it's like developing a relationship or friendship. When the initial attraction with its roller coster full of emotions subsides, there is this deeper sense of communion. That's what I've found here. I am no longer seeking solace but true connections with people.